Obviously I know what sex is, I know it would be more interesting for readers if I didn’t, But I do, the thing is, everybody around me act like they don’t.
from my description, you’ll find out I live in a conservative country, so let’s be real. A conservative religious country means:
1. no sex before marriage.
2. no talking about sex before marriage.
3. no thinking about sex.
4. and if you are really unfortunate, no dating.
you see, when you live in a country with this number of no’s, you rebel. when you rebel, you need to know somethings about some topic that are considered ( not to talk about) which in my country are, God and Sex.
we will talk about God later, but now, being the unblessed soul that I am, when the topic of sex comes up, I have many things to say, despite that I am not married, so I never had sex.
I admit that I have my fantasies, I am comfortable with my sexuality, I am open to anything really, I know what I like and don’t. So people, usually guys, get intimidated. How do I know what sex is, and most importantly, WHY do I know, WHY am I talking about my sexuality, WHY and HOW do I know what I like. to them, I should be A virgin, in my body and my thoughts.
For most off you, what I am writing will seem nonsense, but things are what they are. I remember in a lecture, my female Muslim professor said, ” why do women have to cover themselves while men don’t”. I remember a girl saying, ” we do not look at guys, and we don’t think of them as they think of girls.” and all I could think was , bi*ch what? and I raised my hand and said, ” If you can’t find your sexuality, it doesn’t mean it’s not there, it does not matter how many times you tell yourself you’re not thinking about sex, you do. If you can’t admit that, too bad”. and the professor ended that conversation. the girl thought I was accusing her of being a slut, Like what the hell are talking about, What’s Sex ?!
So, What’s Sex, that’s the question most of people around me, are able to talk about for hours, but only If they are married, not because they magically learn about sex when they get married, but because they are finally allowed to.
The Fu**ed up country I live in.